The Next Steps

Unfortunately, I have lots another pregnancy. I feel like the more I say it, the more I heal. At first the words sent me into uncontrollable panic and depression. I thought talking about it was only making things worse, making me worse. I can understand now that it's better for me to let it be a part of my past and focus on today. One day at a time.
My doctor did a few more rounds of IUI with no luck at all, and then it was time for the talk. We had been doing the most aggressive treatments and it wasn't working. In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) is the next option. This means a whole different doctor for me. IVF isn't covered under our insurance, so our savings will be going towards having a baby in a dish. I am frustrated with this fact, but at the same time, I feel so blessed. Even though my body has failed me thus far, modern medicine can take over and help my dreams come true. Hopefully. It's never a guarantee. The new doctor seems fantastic, though. After laying out thousands and thousands of dollars, we have taken care of all the necessary testing. Just waiting on the results now. However, it's been a week and still no results. I am taking hormones that seem to prey on my patience.
IVF is a whole different game. It's literally 4x the amount of hormones and injections on a daily basis. I know it's gonna be a tough month for me mentally & emotionally, so my goal is to think positive. This will work, it has to.